It was a cold windy morning woke up at 3a.m. feeling hot flushes. I felt I had had a bad dream that I could not remember at that time. My heart was pounding very fast and I could not breath properly. I found myself panicking looking for air to calm myself down. An hour went by and my breathing became heavy but my heart was beating steadily. I could not comprehend what my mind was thinking but I knew I was in panic mode. When the sun came out and dawn came to my rescue I felt better physically but mentally my mind was still wandering. I made myself a cup of coffee whilst I waited for my son to wake up. I knew something was wrong but I did not know what it was. My mind started exaggerating events and I began panicking again this time I was thinking my son wouldn’t wake up from his sleep.
Before a second thought could make its grand entrance I was already racing through my hall towards my bedroom. I got there out of breathe just to see my son on the bed singing. I was more than relieved to find him alive. At this very moment that is when I realised that I was somewhat losing it. But why was I in this mind space? I let that incident slip and half way through the day I became very anxious of little and big things. I was anxious about my health, my cooking, my parenting skills, my laugh, my education, my relationships. Almost every single detail of my life. Every time this happened I’d get shortness of breathe and my mind would go ballistic. I was so afraid of my tomorrow I was so anxious about everything. My friends were graduating some getting married some travelling the world some finding their passion and here I was feeling inadequate and feeling left behind.
These attacks would happen pretty often and they were affecting my life terribly. I became moody and my whole being wasn’t glowing anymore. Life’s little pleasures were no longer exciting to me everything was just dim and dull. One sunny day I literally bumped into my high school Bible and my whole life changed. Holding it in my hand I was like why not just open it since I’m in search of answers. It was a Gideons Bible, I don’t know if you guys know it. Whilst I was flipping through the first pages I read a page that said Help in time of need and underneath the title were a number of problems people go through alongside the verses that helped ease the pain. And to my delight I saw were it said Anxiety then underneath were verses. My fingers ran through it in search of these verses and I found one that calmed my storm and gave me a sense of peace and reassurance. Philipians 4 vs 6;7 which says, “do not be anxious about anything but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the pain peace of God which surpasses all understanding will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.”
These verses as I read them out loud had a balm effect on my troubled soul. An inexplicable sense of happiness was over me and I became calm and collected. Guys this worked for me and every time my world felt overwhelming I would sit down in a quiet environment and speak to my soul with these great words. I tell no lie this is the only remedy I used to my anxiety attacks and it has been helpful. I recommend them to you too when you feel a little anxious about life.
Stay blessed and remember that you are more than a conqueror!